http://prettynpink4329.livejournal.com/ Meghan. - LiveJournal.com Sun, 30 Sep 2007 17:55:27 GMT LiveJournal / LiveJournal.com prettynpink4329 10183015 personal http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/60473999/10183015 http://prettynpink4329.livejournal.com/ 100 70 http://prettynpink4329.livejournal.com/67451.html Sun, 30 Sep 2007 17:55:27 GMT http://prettynpink4329.livejournal.com/67451.html <div align="center"><a target="_blank" href="http://photobucket.com"><img border="0" alt="Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket" src="http://i230.photobucket.com/albums/ee166/mlynn516/postsecrets/bigger.jpg" /></a><br /></div><br /><br /><br />I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't love. I can't do anything right. I am just wandering around aimlessly, not wanting to do anything. I can't even think of an excuse of why I don't like Josh other than just plain boredom and fear. I'm so scared of getting hurt I just prevent myself from coming close.<br /><br />I need someone who can give me a chase, and yet reassure me that they care. Someone who has time for me, but isn't always available. Honestly, Josh and I have nothing in common. He is atheist and talks about how there's no way god can be real, etc etc. and I just don't know what to say besides "this might be more effective if you tell it to someone who is atheist."<br /><br />I finally caught up on my sleep. 12 Hours! woo hoo. Deanna blew me off this weekend. Nicci didn't invite me when everyone was hanging out. I have nothing to do so I ca n't give an excuse to not hang out with Josh. I guess it couldn't hurt, but I'm leading him on without really meaning to. I don't know. I don't know. Addie is so lucky, she doesn't even have to try to get perfect guys. They just flock to her. I wish I was pretty enough for that to work for me.<br /><div align="center"> </div> http://prettynpink4329.livejournal.com/67451.html grumpy public 0